Its a wonder how you can turn a stressful day into a day full of joy yet also turn a happy day into a sorrowful one. Sometimes, I feel that I am not worthy of you. Sometimes, I feel otherwise. We all change as we grow older and supposedly more mature. But, I ask myself this question. Have I changed for the worse or for the better? Maybe.. maybe. It makes me sad that you can't even spare me 5 minutes of your game time to talk to me, even if you know I have exams. It makes me sad that you can't remember which day my exam is even though I just told you 2 hours ago. I was hoping to share my joy with you, but looks like I have to drown alone in my sorrows tonight.
Maybe.. maybe. A thousand maybes, endless possibilities. Maybe you have lost interest, maybe you just don't care, maybe I will learn to become numb.
Numb - Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
But under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I've become so tired, so much more aware
I've becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
♥Jace Mall