I feel so terrible.

There, I've said it. I DO feel horrible today. My head weighs a million tons and I could not sleep well the entire night. Even in my dreams, I see Cloisite and surfactants and organoclay nanocomposites. I know I have to do it, and I'm trying my best really. Its just.. not happening according to schedule. I can't break through my barrier at the moment, and to tell the truth, its really disheartening. I can watch the time ticking away slowly, dripping through my fingers and all I can do is to watch. Maybe I should try to be more cheerful and stop thinking so negatively all the time.

Oh well, on a happier note, its new year's eve tonight! Celebration of the inevitable. 2006 will come, whether you are hiding in a corner or out on the beach with hot bikini babes. A great way to start the new year would be to spend it on reports! Good news folks, I'm not bitter, I'm just discontented with the way my life is.

Have I ever expressed my displeasure at guys who two-time? They are on the lowest rank of the hierachy of jerks. I would never understand why girls would put up with people like them who think they can have the best of both worlds. I may not know what love truly means, but I definitely understand what love isn't. God gave you one heart so that you can have only 1 person in your heart. Unless you are an octopus (they have 3 hearts) in disguise, you have no right to be indecisive about who you love. You say you are in love, but your heart is with two people at the same time. Are you really in love? Or are you just in love with the feeling of being in love? To have more than one girl at your side, aren't you just lonesome for company? If so, please don't throw the words "love" and "care" around so frivolously. You are not worthy of it.

;I CREATED A SHEEP!
11:46 AM